Here's the update...

Maybe, just maybe I was a little dramatic last night... I mean, I still feel like I have some pretty legit reasons to be upset... or frustrated... or anxious... whatever, I feel justified, but guess what. God loves me, and He wants me to be answer, He answered my prayers, and the fact of the matter is that even if there hadn't been an answer so soon, or if it had been a different answer, He would still love me and want me to be happy.

This morning I woke up to my phone vibrating. It was over before I woke up enough to answer it. But you'd better believe I hit redial right away! So, for the first time in more than a week I got to talk to the boy. And the ridiculous part is that once I heard his voice, I was done being upset, or even anxious. So, a door opened, and he's going to be able to come with me, barring some catastrophe he'll be there, probably on Friday. And we'll drive down and it will be fantastic!

Then we talked, and I guess I had an epiphany. See... the boy's sister had a baby last week on Tuesday. So I started to say something about him seeing pictures of his new niece. The funny thing is, he didn't have a clue! The baby's premature, in the NICU, etc. and nobody told him! I told his sister that I hoped I didn't blow some big secret, and she just said "Oh, I didn't know that he didn't know...". I guess nobody in his family thought of it. It explains the communication understanding that he has, versus the one I have... very different. It'll be something to figure out...

And life is good again... I'm not used to having a 3rd person have so much... influence on me. It's hard, and new, and good and.... can I just say how excited I am to be able to have time to figure this all out... time. I'm grateful for time.