Flawed

I'm going to apologize in advance for this blog, it's just how I feel, deal with it.
Today I feel broken. I feel like I'm just not enough and that I'm wholly flawed. This morning I missed my 7am class, had a meeting at 9, then I took my paper for my humanities class to the teacher's office, then I went to take Darcie err- Hermana Smart to the MTC. Especially after my meeting I just felt like crying. When did I stop being ok? When will I be enough? I know that these thoughts and feelings don't reflect reality always. So I got all cute, I did my hair, I put on make up, I put the final touches on the missionary bag that I bought and stuffed for her, and I went and and met them at the Olive Garden for her 'last meal'.
Hermana Smart was wearing one of my missionary jumpers. It looked so good on her-- she looked so good. I'm so proud of her, and excited for her! The drop off went so well- I was the designated video-grapher, so I videoed her getting out of the car, and hugging her parents and me, and walking away with two zone leaders. It was beautiful. The Smarts did great- no crying at all. I, on the other hand, teared up.
Then the Smarts took me back to my car (that I left at the Olive Garden) and they got out to hug me. Adam said something-- he said that I there was no shortcomings in me. That was what I needed to hear. It just was. It was such a blessing to have them here. I just feel like every now and again I need someone who really knows me to tell me I'm ok.
So I'm ok.