Frustration

Today, I was frustrated (Actually a few times this week, I've been frustrated, but that's another story...). I was frustrated and my feelings were hurt and I was left on my own (because I am an adult) to deal with that frustration. The problem is that the techniques I taught as a nanny (fold your hands together, practice self control, count to ten, etc.) are generally reserved for situations where you are about to do something you regret (like punch your sister). In terms of flight or fight, I am a flight girl. I will run rather than face confrontation. So today I flighted.

This post, dear readers, probably won't make much sense, sorry about that. The person I am most frustrated with has no clue.(I spent hours on something and was blown off with no thought or consideration.) I just decided I am tired of having a one-sided relationship with this individual.(Who says 'we should talk' but never actually makes time) And I am certain that the reason for my tipping point was lost on them.

(Or am I just burning bridges because it's easier than having people drift away once I'm gone?)

On top of that, the EQP is currently in my kitchen doing my roommates nasty dishes. I am so embarrassed. In the sink is a pot full of ramen noodles that have been there for at least 4 days because I refuse to take care of them. Tomorrow I'm cooking for dinner group, so I'll probably clean them up before then, if there are any left.

(I can't wait to be in a house where yes, I'll likely do the dishes, but they will be done- and I'll get paid to do them!) 

And the past few days I've had headaches so bad I've pulled out my borderline narcotics from the perma-headache.

And now I feel like a Debbie downer. 

Let's list some happy things:

• Graduation is in less than a month (I'm not counting days anymore, it stresses me out too much).
• I have really cute fingers and toes.
• Tonight we had family dinner for the first time in a long while. It was nice, and my sister R wasn't TOO mean to me. 
• I have awesome plans for every weekend for the next month! A trip to Moab, 2 trips to Idaho, and a weekend at General Conference! (Not in that order-- Conference, Idaho, Moab, Idaho/home)
• My pain-killers are starting to work, which means bed time draws nigh.
• I had a beautiful afternoon nap.
• I looked way good today. (This is especially good because I didn't feel well)
• My S roommate is back from being gone all weekend. I missed her mucho! 
• I get to see my momma in less than 2 weeks. (and my Dad too!)
• And the nieces. (and my brother and sister in law.)
• I'm moving near my K sister, who I haven't seen in almost a year now. 
• I have no more midterms left
• After Wednesday I'll be all done with presentations. 
• This weekend I sent a whole batch of stuff back home (This is load 1 of 4. probably)
• Life is good. 
• Oh, someone asked if he could set me up with his roommate... forget the fact that the next month of my life is crazy busy, I said yes... it was flattering.
• I washed my face already, which means I'll remain the same skin age for 7 days longer. 
• I'm making sweet and sour kielbasa for dinner tomorrow, which is delicious. And the Kielbasa is turkey and lean and was on sale. And I already made the cabbage salad, it's just got to be spruced up tomorrow.
• I got to go to my friend's wedding reception last night. It was beautiful and I am so happy for her. 
• Modern medicine is good. 

See Emily, life is good.